and my heart is sad.



"Make a tree good and its fruit will be good, or make a tree bad and its fruit will be bad, for a tree is recognized by its fruit. You brood of vipers, how can you who are evil say anything good? For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned."

matthew 12:33-37

The most recent post on Why Justin Why ... not on beggars... (Justin Wolfshohl) is worth reading.

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I'm not sure if i love being a night hawk. Sometimes I think that it might hurt me during the day... admittedly i've toned down the late night since i've started working, but dang let me say that as i sit here listening to some music, i realize how much i enjoy staying up late sometimes...

not all the time, but sometimes




at the same time, i have begun to realize the peace and beauty of a good beginning to a day.

i want both, but i realize i can't have them both at the same time.

I dunno why, but I wanna fight through.

But then again, I've been told I like fighting.

what a great night.

Thanks Peter

Truly I don't recall seeing as sincere a smile on Jonathan Armour's face, as I have recently.

Great win today in March Madness from the Aggies. Also, glad to see Baylor pull out a win against Georgetown in the NIT.


Hi Christie.


That reminds me of how much I believe facebook is undermining any kind of authentic relationship building. I realize I've blogged on this before. But let's all be honest here. There are few less sincere ways to communicate with someone, than by facebook (and I'm only allowing e-mail to be elevated slightly over facebook because of its more widespread and regular use). Its kinda annoying to me how much is learned and how much is communicated over a medium that is designed to tear down privacy rights, and make money. Facebook is long gone as a convenient medium for college and young adult networking. Its now the MySpace for everyone, creepers, and college drop outs included. Its lost a status, and that kinda stinks. Now, its not really special anymore, its more of a "eh well everyone else is on..." kinda thing.

Fun? sure. Convenient in a busy world? sure. Insincere? Unarguable. Laughably immature? sometimes.

People just look for something to do, so they can complain about being too busy. If some people don't always have something to do, then they will inevitably have to face tough issues.

Why do people have a hard time just relaxing, especially when it comes to over-valued projects and 'work'?

It kills me, becuase as I'm learning more disciplined work mentalities and mindsets, I'm learning them from over agressive, hyper-intensive workaholics.

please don't be dumb enough to say "oh lookit - two nominations for his cabinet have stepped down, must be the sign of an administrative nightmare (or replace administrative nightmare with truly an unworthy leader)"

I know that my great friends are not dumb enough to think similarly dumb things.

time comes and goes. i just looked through a photo album of a friend of my brothers, who was celebrating his last year at the air force academy.

i remember when my friends at the academies were getting ready to be sophomores, and I was looking forward to my junior year in college.

it all seems to have just wizzed by, and here i am - 24, out on my own, never to have a college experience again. this bums me out in a lot of ways, and i guess right now, that bumming out is outweighing the positive forethought of what lies ahead of me. truly the best is yet to come, but i just have no idea how quickly the past 6 years went, and i have no idea how much i would learn, and grow and change and gain perspective since i started the next steps in my life.



nostalgia is a funny thing - truly i think its a form of pity party - and thats not the best way to go about living life. but it is a good thing sometimes b/c you get to look back, and i think that for those who are mature enough to get over it (the nostalgia that is) in an appropriate amount of time, it forces you to evaluate where you are now, and where you are headed.... and who you are.


... and does that picture look like you want it to? are you who you want to be? truly, are you just letting the situations play the major role in molding you, or are you using situations to mold yourself, with the guidance of Wisdom, and the Wisest of Councils?


but i guess most of it is, for me anyway, i miss the way i used to think about developing - about how i told myself - thats not the best thing to do in the situation, and "this type of person doesn't notice when you do this" or things like that.


wow i don't blog very 'organizationally'


also, i wonder if the people who helped me along the way, realize what the have done, and i wonder if they value it.

i know that i value the thought of potentially doing that for someone else, and it would be great to know and hear that i did.




... and man people's journeys are just so unique, and unexpected. some can't hang on, some can.

but all of us need to hold out hope.


truly, hope.

Soldiers who are fighting in Iraq and Afghanistan routinely are on facebook.
Warfighters - men and women who are tasked with stabilizing a country and combating terrorist networks, update their status.

This just trips me out.

adults don't like jokes.

I understand being non-committal.

But some of my friends, refuse to take a stand and make a call on something. They can dance and dodge (which, believe me, I've been accused of) and not want to answer, being afraid of being backed into a corner, or exposed in ignorance. But thats ok. If you believe something, and you think its right, work it out, think on it, pray on it, truly evaluate it. Don't blindly believe anything, save your faith, if it so entails.

But for the love of God, stand strong.

It is unfair for my personal lack of discipline to affect relationships and areas in my life negatively, especially those upon which i place a great deal of value.

I barely caught it at almost a month since i posted.

Already 2 weeks into 2009, and time just keeps on flying.

A helicopter crash on A&M's campus yesterday - 1/12 - really bummed me out. Not only because a 22 year old, patriotic Aggie died, but becuase A&M might lose a great tradition of military proportions - the ROTC cadets - who, by the way, go through the same training and come into the Armed Forces as any other military academy - such as West Point or Annapolis.

I doubt that training such as this will take place on the fields again, which is kind of a bummer - that is such a unique thing - to have official military training operations take place on campus, and now, like Bonfire, they will probably be done away with.

Another person has died on A&M's campus, and that makes me sad. Terrible lucky? I guess... i don't know what else to call it...?

Its kind of cool looking through my old youth pastor's website - of pictures of his family and friends... random stuff from christmas albums to pics of hurricane ike damage, etc. one album was titled roommie reunion - of his wife and i guess some roommates in college, and their reunion consisted of visiting a friends house, and renting large inflatable water slides... and its just funny to see and know him - Eric - and think that I am looking at his legacy, at what his life is all about - his kids - and how he is raising them, and how he loves them and loves to show them off - how quickly they grow up and how quickly he has grayed, etc. its just funny, and oddly encourages me to be introspective....


but whats new? me being introspective? please...

Sheryl Crow's Every Day is a Winding Road just came up on the internet radio station I listen to. It will undoubtedly be stuck in my head for days. This is the stone cold truth. That is one of those songs for me.

Brutal

The kind of guy i want to be to my friends and to people close to me (which are sometimes NOT one in the same), sometimes is not accurately reflected in my actions and my thoughts. Well, in my actions at least, via my words. My thoughts are a different story, because I think about all the great people who have come through my life, and people in my life who have described people they know and have come in contact with who have affected their life so greatly.

I think the issue is patience, but there are issues that are out of my hands when it comes to some. I cannot tell people what to do, but I can affect how my attitude matches with my actions to be the kind of guy I know that I want to be, or moreso, the kind of guy that people can trust, and feel comfortable around.

why do people insist on not believing that global warming is a problem?

HOW do people believe that increased industry, growth in population and production could NOT increase energy and heat that could cause a rise in environmental temperature. Sure, it doesn't appear that the effects will be felt during our lifetime, but after all, aren't the steps we're taking, with our jobs and families and thoughts of the future, not for us after all? Aren't they for the future - kids, grandkids, etc?

Tell you what, if you want to believe that its all made up and its a bunch of political propoganda, believe what you'd like. But if you can make some steps to be a little more conscious of the issue, and your personal effect, good for you, you're thinking a little more broadly than before. And everyone appreciates someone who thinks about the welfare of others.

these are gonna be random thoughts


i bet you wish more people read your blog (this is probably not referring to YOU)


blogs have replaced mass emails, for some, mostly families, as emails have replaced massive letters "family updates: Janice got married recently, Bobby is off at college, and John and I are trying to figure out just what to do with our lives. Jimminy Cricket, where did the time go?!"

...and communication continues to become depersonalized



awkward interaction between me and older supply chain guy at work. i gave him some papers to look over and tell me a/b what he knew about them. 3 weeks later, he hasn't got back to me (to be fair, i told him there was no rush, but i needed them in 1.5 weeks), and as i passed him in the hall, we made awkward eye contact, because i had asked him about it before, and he said he was working on it, but he stopped kinda as we passed, looked up briefly, only halfway turned, and then i looked up at him, and he kinda started walking again, then kinda stopped, and i just walked on. it was so awkward for him, and i just found it so terribly funny. ha.



Some people REALLY can't let go. And i find that these people are the same people who don't understand interactions.

Again, people who have lived their lives and not been open to a different way of doing things, are easy to spot as adults. People who think that "a different way of doing things" means that you should live in a tree house and become Muslim, obviously lack perspective, and couldn't be changed anyway.



Hey, relax.





I pray for excitement, I pray for challenge, and I pray for the opportunity to see the world, and all the diverse things God created.



I pray against the status quo, and the way things are, but for finding truth in all situations.








Tracy McGrady has been sitting out for 4 games, and has been paid over 1,000,000 USD.