I'm just gonna start typing

when i sat down after i walked the last ppl out of my house - i wanted to just focus on one thing. i can't focus. i just cant -i can't sit down and do one thing at a time -and it makes me so mad. so i wanted to go turn on the tv, and watch sportscenter and probably flip back and forth between blind date and the world series of poker re-runs. but i didn't - i was just like - let me sit down and get some thoughts out; and i am doing so

its amazing how this world has developed. (to all the weblog readers/internet communication junkies): what would our lives be like if we couldn't communicate through AIM for a day's plans or communicate as to what we were doing that day? Would people know a little more about me had i not had a blog? see i don't know b/c then all the time that we WASTE on the internet we might turn into productive relationship development time. instead of spending X hours reading blogs or talking on AIm or checking email 3,100 times we might call someone up - or just drive (ride a bike even, gasp!) <- wow in the past sentence i've just done 3 things that i really can't stand - like i hate when i see people do them - 1) exaggurate on numbers - to a completely stupid extent 2) i typed out "gasp" to be a sarcastic twit, and it just seems, uh dumb, and i used the <- arrow replacement - see - and i don't want to go back and edit what i do - i jsut want to type and hopefullly you'll have a little insight into how i think and how i just like to let my mind go sometimes. I know it would be easy to edit and me talking about it seems even more ridiculous, but eh, what ya gonna do. ...like i guess we might spend more time talking to people face to face - at least i hope that i would - i feel like for me that wouldn't be a struggle, in fact, i'd love to do that more, and if i can manage my time better and not forfeit opportunities to do so, face to face relationship developement would be ideal - and the best type of development there is. what a waste of time facebook is. what a waste of time AIM is... but i go back and forth on AIm - like - its a great way to communicate, easily and non-awkwardly and quickly - and generally thats how most people would prefer it. we don't have to put up a front or look at someone uncomfortably in the face, or make eye contact - its easy to lie, its easy to ignore, and its definitely easy to hide emotions behind the square foot of glass or liquid in front of you. you insecure person. face your insecurities like a strong person. if you don't think you're strong, you sould test yourself, b/c if you don't test yourself, God knows that He will or someone else will - and then where are you? do something to step outside of your comfort zone. EAT ALONE. SIT BY YOURSELF IN CLASS. WALK ACROSS CAMPUS ALONE. wow - its times when i do that that i feel stronger the insecurities comment brings me to my first lyrics quote of the night. some of my friends might be familiar w/ me saying this or have seen it before from Incubus' Smile Lines
-ill just quote the whole stanza

"I'll never act my age
But you can tell by the lines in my smile
That I have been around for awhile
So, insecurities
Are about as useful as trying
To put the pin back in the grenade."

Now, i'm not one to take every lyric that an artist says to be truth - when in fact they are just words - and after all, if it is not written down somewhere respectable, we can't hold it as truth.
What i am one to do is to take lyrics that i find appropriately applicable and share it with people to whom it might apply - and this is one of those lyrics - dear blog readers, note your insecurities, note their usefulness. do they help you? do they serve any purpose but to expose your weaknesses? do they help you find TRUTH? do they help you in your relationships? are they truly useful in your life???

Now, i know what we might say; yes, they do help me to see where i am weak so i can work on this or that, but can they change you? can they force your hand to stop or start...? no, they cannot; their functional use is non-extant, and it is your securities, your strenghts that aid you in your quest for TRUTH and help you develop into the person God needs you to be.

I guess you know yourself better than God. perhaps He didn't make you, didn't knit you together and He doesn't know your thoughts before you think them. Well, wait. He does. Hmm
so you're telling me that God knows what we think before we say or think it.

"For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether." Ps. 139: 4

Pslam 139 - short and sweet and humbling (sp?) its too much for us to fully comprehend ever. will trying to figure God out get me anywhere? I'm split here - sometimes i think it might. I think that in my quest to figure out what God is up to - giving me a body and a sharp mind and allowing me to think thoughts about Him and the world and people, and myself - and choices as to what i'll do with the knowledge of Him and the world and people, and myself - i mean - what will i do with it? I don't think i'll ever figure it out - but it won't stop me from thinking about it - but when i come to a dead end - with a specific tenant of "faith" or some concept - i'm going to realize that there is an end to what my mind can comprehend. I may or may not have reached that end, but i'm definitely not going to kill myself chasing a trail of bread crumbs to a place i know doesn't end. God's knowledge is infinite, and his words and complete knowledge are way above me, lest my mind be infinite and unlimited as well. If my mind was infinite and unlimited, undoubtedly i would know how to gain limitless power, no? if i knew that, well, then I'd be an ultimate and unlimited being, unbound by (among countless other things) gravity time and physcial demensions. I don't know any human that isn't, therefore i dont know of any human past or present that has an unlimited mind, unbound by humanistic (and physical limitations)

that is, unless my unbound mind knew how to get this power, and knew that it was impossible to do so. then we're just stuck w/ an unlimited mind that has no hands or feet. bummer.

we do however, have a limited mind, with much an under-utilized (eh? work with it.) potential, and those who realize this, and seek to maximize their knowledge and capabilities, well, they (we, i might say of myself sometimes) are a step above. I want to be there - i at least want to ever be on my way. ya know? i don't wanna sit and limit myself, but i don't wanna live a foolish hope that i am unlimited.

Limits. Some people might say that all limits are moveable. i have to disagree. the limits of my hope to travel the world and photograph images all over the world is firm (not immovable). i don't have the money or time. i suppose i can make the time, and the money too, but right now, its just a hope without real potential. now, you might say that if i wanted it bad enough, i'd make it happen. now i'd agree with that - but i'd counter by saying that - none of us want these things we might say (travel the world, make a million dollars - wow now thats not a desperate, shallow desire; sheesh - read 1000 books, write a novel, etc.) that we do want bad enough to go do them. Time is another limit. Right now, lets stick with my idea of travelling and photographing (and writing - and by writing - mostly journalling to myself - and by myself i mean mostly to the people that i would want to share it with - the first thought is my wife - wherever she is. man, i love her.) i really don't have the time. at this point in my life, its best for me to finish school in college station, and then go from there. i mean, who knows maybe after that i'll end up with money enough and time enough and opportunities enough to do this. however, i doubt it.

i just paused - where does this leave us? where does this conclusion leave me. do i really not want it? i really don't know - i mean there's nothing saying i don't want it (or anything else bad enough) it just i guess comes down to where my limits are and when my limits change. Some limits are moveable. Some are temporary. Some will always be there, and there is NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT. a desire to completely comprehend the Lord? admirable, and something we should strive for, but our limitation to remain eternally unmoved- our finite minds; our finite understanding of time and human nature and human thought. some people can break out of the limitation of "religion" or "existential thought", but those people, no one else, can break past our limited minds as humans. its hard to accept, fight it as you might, but we can't get it all. we just can't. when you think you've got it all, hmm - i suppose you'll know whether or not to tell everyone that God exists or why good things happen to bad people or why Regan sucked and Clinton was the closest we had to God on earth, or whether or not Bush is a complete idiot, or why people thought Kerry would be a great leader, or why Hitler killed himself, or why Arsenal beat Manchester U, or why I can't focus sometimes.

here's some things i'm not saying: we should stop trying to comprehend the mysteries of God or the laws of nature, or we should not hope for things that will never come true. Hm, wait i am saying that if we know that something is never going to happen, we probably should refocus and accept its inevitable impossibility. Sure, you could tell yourself that "ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE!!!" However, you might be mistaken. You won't know everything, and you can't do everything ( i learned that this semester as my GPA took quite a detrimental hit). Daniel, you pessimist some might be uttering. Don't tell me I can't do anything I want. Eh, sorry - I'm stuck here w/ some limitations and you are too.

Here's what i am saying: Aim high and expect to hit higher. Aim unrealistically, and don't expect that your real(istic) self can hit COMPLETELY IMPOSSIBLE targets. Aim at some targets that you think are nearly impossible. NEARLY, not completely, but nearly. If you think of a target as impossible to hit, you're already at least half-way behind. If you think of a target as nearly impossible, but feasible, you're half-way there. Wow, that sounds corny, bad form. What i am saying is this: everything in this world is not possible. I can't get to the top levels of pro football. It is literally impossible (size, strength, knowledge, support, time, money). I cannot make the 51st state and force myself into the United States. Man, i'm stuck. Most things are possible. Think that things are do-able, but don't think that you are super-human; think that you are capable beyond what you might think. Give yourself credit, and definitely don't think you are more incapable than you are. DON'T BE STUPID. There, that sounds good. DON'T BE STUPID.

i'm kinda wanting to talk about how i hope i sound to people, how i hope that i don't sound inconsiderate or rude. but ya know, in all honesty, i'm not living to please people - well theoretically (and mostly in actuality for me) i really don't care what people think of me - they are not my audience. God is my only judge, and his standard is high. Mine needs to be high, because if its really low, what am i doing to myself but underperforming. I mean, i just spit it out for almost 2 hours and if you don't wanna speak with me again, allright. if you wanna hang out or talk, done. if you don't care, i mean, fair enough. I'm not living for you. I'm living for God, and I'm living my life. My life is not mine though, its my Creator's. I have a gift, and i hope i suffer eternally if i didn't use it well, or appreciate it, or respect it, or cherish it.

C.S. Lewis on a later blog. Maybe i'll just talk about my thoughts in person a little more. i feel like i do it enough, but i could always use more. Thanks for reading till the end if you did. I dont know why i'm thanking you, but i mean peole need appreciation, so I'll give it to them, when I feel as if they deserve it. If you haven't stopped reading by now, or have finished through this, I'm really flattered.

Here's a few more quotes from some songs:

Switchfoot's Ode to Chin

"What's your direction?
Tell me what's wrong, tell me what's right
What's your direction?
Think about somebody else for the night
Life's more than girls
God's more than words
You're more than this
So what's your direction?
And where are you now?
Grow, grow where you are
Anchor your roots underneath
Doubt your doubts and believe your beliefs."

from Switchfoot's Life and Love and Why

"Life and love and why
Child adult then die
All of your hoping and all of your searching for what?
Ask me for what am I living and what gives me strength that i'm willing to die for
Take away from me this monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living and what gives me strength that I’m willing to die for
Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Could it be all that I ever had missed?
Could it be true?
Can life be new?
And can I be used?
Can I be used?
Give me a reason for life and for death
And a reason for drowning while I hold my breath
Something to laugh at a reason to cry
With everyone hopeless and hoping for something to hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for
Could it be true?
Can life be new?
Could it be all that I am is in You?
Could it be this?
Could it be bliss?
Can it be You?
Can it be You?"

good stuff from Foreman and the boys - i got little else

at the end of the day, I'm just Daniel, I'm Daniel! I'm Daniel.

and funny enough, i can breath a sigh of relief because God is God.

Isaiah 45:6
"That they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none beside me. I am the LORD, and there is none else. "

People are amazing.

This is gonna be random.

Here are some favorite Weizel family sayings, that I find amazingly true and, umm amazing.

"Hey, ya never know."

"Fuhgedhabahdit" (Many might realize that this is a NE slang term that many might use, however no one in Texas that I've met uses it. Booya.)

"Everyone's got a story."


thats all i got for now. I leave for DC in a week or so - I can't wait - to get up there and see for myself how i can make a difference, or what i can do.

I'm gonna hit DC hard.


Game 1 : Texas A&M 8
Texas 7

Here are some lyrics from Kanye West's skits on his album College Dropout.

Think about them, they're hilarious and poignent.


School Spirit Skit 1:

Now beat that
And your mothers sayin “go to college”So u finish college and its wonderful
You feel so good
And after all the partying and crazing
And don’t forget about that drug habit u picked up at school bein around your peers
Hey now you’ll get that 25 thou, job a year and
You’ll spend all your money on crack cocaine, but it’ll be you’re your money
No more borrowin money from mom for my high
So now you get ur degree tattooed on your back your so excited about it
If u continue to work at the GAP, after several interviews,
Oh my god!
You’ll come in at an entry level position and when u do that
If u kiss enough ass, you’ll move up to the next level
Which is being a secretary’s secretary!
And boy is that great, you get to take messages for the secretary
Who never went to college
Shes actually the bosses niece, so now you're a part of the family
You know what college does for you?
It makes you really smart man
All you kids want to talk in the back of the class not me, I listened, okI was a hall monitor,
This was meant to be,
You know how many classes I took, extra classes extra classes
No I’ve never had sex but you know what? My degree keeps me satisfied
When a lady walks to me says “hey you know whats sexy?”
I say “no, I don’t know what it is, but I bet I can add up all the change in your purse very fast”.


School Spirit Skit 2:

You keep it going man, you keep those books rolling,
You pick up those books you're going to read
And not remember and you roll man.
You get that associates degree, okay,
Then you get your bachelors, then you get your masters
Then you get your master's masters,
Then you get your doctorate,
You go man, then when everybody says quit
You show them those degree man, when
Everybody says hey, your not working,
Your not making in money,
You say look at my degrees and you look at my life,
Yeah i'm 52, so what, hate all you want,
But i'm smart, i'm so smart, and i'm in school,
And these guys are out here making
Money all these ways, and i'm spended mine to be smart.
You know why?
Because when i die, buddy, you know
What going to keep me warm, that right, those degrees



Yep, thats what life is all about: money and degrees.

To the world:

You need to be:

-best friends with people who give back to you - not you always asking that you do things for them, or call when they need something, but they should care, they should ask and seek to know and understand. If they don't, then they don't need to be your best friends. Don't be selfish.

-with someone who gives of themselves back to you (see above), don't settle, don't be mediocre, and don't be complacent - strive - aim so high

-realistic, you live in the here and now, not the past, but the future is what you are going to be living in, however it is not right now - so "go where you are, anchor your roots underneath. Doubt your doubts, and believe your beliefs."

"Life is not what you want it to be; it is what it is. Its how you cope with it that makes the difference." (I miss you, Andrea)

-romantic - too much reality is boring and stupid. You can't overlook it, but you can, and need to be, romantic many times. Find something that sets your heart on fire. Find something that you could die for. If you live a life without finding something to die for, your life was a failure. (I paraphrased a quote from someone famous, I believe).

-apologize - if you screw up - own up to it - don't make excuses, you can be wrong. ITS OK. realize that you are not perfect and that YOU SCREW UP SOMETIMES. ITS OK

-live - do what you can where you are


To some this may sound stupid and mushy, to others, profound. I'm not always right, i find that i'm wrong more often than i think; and thats ok.

God is good, and alive in the world. Doubt that and you've got a long number of years ahead of you.

It makes me really - i dunno - frustrated at many of my peers - we are in class - VTPB 221 - Great Diseases of the World - and our professor - Dr. Tizard - (who has a tight Scottish accent by the way) is sharing with us his passion - and i understand that Malaria and The Plague and Syphilis might not be the most interesting thing in the world -but at the end - he asks "any questions?" and as soon as he pauses before that query - everyone knows its time to go - and no one looks up - no one asks a question - everyone gets their crap together and thinks about what they need to do next - and i feel sorry for our professor - he is sharing his passion with us - so after he pauses a few awkward seconds - everyone gets up and leaves - and he nods his head and walks back to his desk -

i dunno - maybe i'm being to empathetic a/b this - he is a prof. and he gets paid to teach

anyhow - i went up to him and introduced myself and said that i was appreciative of him sharing with us - especially allowing Poli Sci majors into such a class - the interesting subjects in the class

maybe i'm being retarded - but then again - its all about the people

As i sit here on hold with HP, trying to get my IPAQ sync fixed up - i have a chance to reflect a little bit


Andrea Gent was injured in a car accident Sunday afternoon - the 23rd.
She is still in a coma, and probably won't come out of it.
Its bizzare in so many ways.
I met Andrea a little more than 3 years ago. I met her through Ben after they came back from Frontier - through Young Life.

I remember hanging out with her at my house over Christmas Break, and walking her out to her car. Most recently i remember her coming into our VTPB class and giving me a huge hug - and being so excited we were in a class together. Man, her smile just shines out in my mind. Its, wow, amazingly mind-blowing to think i'll never see it again. I'll never see her again. Andrea Gent is gone.

This week - i found myself in a daze; asking questions of God, asking questions of myself. Questioning, and recalling; getting upset and searching for peace.

Lets be really clear: I'm upset and my heart aches. There is no comfort in the world's words.

Lets be really clear: I'm not in control. I'm ok with that. I am totally helpless, and I'm fine.

God is in control. Its that simple. Don't make it too complicated, don't think about it too much. It won't make sense. What will make sense is this: God is in control; He knows whats going on; He's got a better plan than the one I can cook up.


Make the best of the situation you are put in. Word.

Look where we find ourselves:

2005

January

back in school


and focusing more and more on ourselves

maybe the problem is that you think of yourself too much

pity yourself too much

i find myself doing it sometimes, and i'm aiming to stop

but self-pity is where many people, oddly enough, find comfort.

and that is extremely strange to me

Dear ,

Get over yourself. Look around you, look at the people. There are times you should use to exchange with them feelings and thoughts...

Be interested in others.

Focus on what you need to do, but what lasts the longest is your investments in people.

Pursue things outside of yourself, then you'll have a better perspective inward.

wow,

these past few days have been crazy

Christmas come and gone, new years a-comin'

i've had an extremely self-reflective past 10 days or so

its been amazing


i don't understand why people are so afraid of things

it has to be internal -they are struggling with something like- openning up - or trusting people

thats something that i think few people do easily, and less easily admit

seriously - what is the big deal - don't complain about people not trusting or letting others in, and not do that yourself

wow, how 2 faced

trust, let people earn it, but not with a trial by fire; still use a trial though

Justify what you'd like.

Make it seem like what you're doing is right.

You aren't perfect, no one is.

I'm definitely not perfect.

My standard is pursuing Christ. I WANT TO LIVE ABOVE REPROACH, SO WHEN SOMEONE LOOKS AT MY LIFE - THEY DON'T SEE - "oh - daniel is doing good, he's a great guy"- i want them to see that Daniel is trying his best to emulate (n. To strive to equal or excel, especially through imitation: an older pupil whose accomplishments and style I emulated.) Christ.

I don't care what other people say, I"ll strive for the best - and thats the example of Christ.

Man, i wish i could just get there. I'm far from it - but man - God tells me that He'll honor my pursuit, and thats what I'll try to do.


I'll never get to perfection, I just am limited. However, I find no worthier pursuit of my efforts than striving to be the best.

Let me tell you a few things that are on my mind and have been for a while.

I'll start with the most recent.

Smoking cigarettes sucks. Why do you do it, you lonely, nicotine addicted punks, outside of my window. It used to be fun at the beginning of the semester, with all of you guys out there puffing on Tar Sticks, now its just a habit, that you must obey your body for. You are addicted, you can't go a day, let alone a few hours without puffing on a Marlboro. You sit outside -BY YOURSELF NOW - and smoke. Man, that has to be lonely. Enjoy a cigar, with your friends, ocassionally, in a comfortable setting; not daily, and definitely not bi-hourly and defintely not freezing your balls off outside of your dorm, or any number of buildings. I feel pity for you boys outside my dorm smoking by yourselfs and just looking so incredibly inspired and foucsed on the things you need to get done - like schoolwork and meeting interesting people (things you do in college). I'm sure that you might have great grades and stuff, and have met so many interesting people; but dang, I don't know if i can accurately estimate the hours and hours and hours you have wasted lighting up and inhaling carcinogenic fumes from the end of a lighted piece of paper. When i open my dorm window to get some fresh, cool air into my room, and go down the hall, i come back to find my room reeking of piss-awful cigarette smoke, I get frustrated. Go smoke up your own rooms, just go away from the front of the building. Idiots, gosh!

My trip to Austin.

I left about 9:00 pm (2100) from NW Houston on Thanksgiving Thursday for Austin. I had a nice drive up there and i had alot of time to think. I was anxious to get back up to Austin for a number of reasons.
1. I enjoy the city.
2. I enjoy the people i know there (Chris Riley, Ryan Granzow, Nancy Keucher - just to name a few - sorry if I forgot to mention you)
3. I enjoy the college atmosphere.

I got to the city at about 12:00 am (0000) and parked and jogged to the Capitol for Yell Practice. By the time i got there there were thousands of people - including a bunch of disrespectful Texas fans. (For arguments sake, for any kind of sake, I will not refer to Texas Longhorn fans as t-sips during this blog - i'll say longhorns). When you, longhorns, are having your traditional... well nevermind. We wouldn't go bother you anyhow. ** We had a maroon aTm flag hanging above the Capitol entrance, and we had a great Yell Practice, including a mentioning of the fact that Austin is run by an Aggie Mayor, and the State of Texas is run by an Aggie Governer (Rick Perry '72). It was an absolute blast. I got a few picutres in front of the maroon adorned Capitol, it was great.

Then I went back to Chris Riley's house and hung around, and after watching Legends of the Hidden Temple, Family Double Dare, and GUTS! (all former Nickalodeon shows, if you'll remember) I hit the sack. I got up, put on my maroon t-shirt, and went to lunch with Chris and his friends. When I got to the game, well lets start with walking up to the game. There was - well i can't really estimate how many people with alcohol in their hands walking down the streets of Austin, toward DKR stadium. Half of them were drunk falling over their friends, and sure enough (as expected, I was prepared) I hadn't made it to withing 300 yards of the stadium and i hear "Man, its gotta suck to go to A&M - getting beat by Baylor?! Hey Aggie, why don't you take this stick and shove it 8 inches up your A$$!!!" (followed by drunken laughter and a few buddies saying, "James, let go of the beer.") My new friend next to me - one of Chris' roommates immediately apologized. I reminded him of what we discussed earlier at lunch - how we can't judge each other's schools by some drunken idiots, and how we both adamantly agreed on this point. However, I wasn't expecting more than a few random people to be this way. We entered the stadium and we are walking along towards our seats. We get to our section just as the game is fixing to start, and we get under way. Without recounting every detail of the "experience" in the longhorn student section, I'll just hit some of the high points. Now, mind you - I expected nothing less - I'm not ignorant and did not expect to be hit with some Baylor comments and some "gig this" 's, however, I, along with my friend Wes did not expect to be physically harmed, and VULGARLY insulted. Texas got the first touchdown, which was put together off of a great drive (They are a good football team, I can admit that). I don't know, after most first downs and at random times, we heard "Texas... give 'em hell, give 'em hell MAKE 'EM EAT SH*T" which Chris said properly as "give 'em hell, give 'em hell, Go 'horns Go!". Wow, look at that. These students have twisted around a phrase extolling their own team, into (trying to) humiliating the other team. Lets not forget the T-E-X-A-S (and how the varients between each of those letters, I care not to repeat). MMM, classy! Listen, I know the first thing that you are going to point to is our yell of "Beat the hell outta ____". Call me crazy, but thats the only yell, 1 thing that we have against our opponents. Our war hymn is about beating Texas, our rivals, and that would be 2 count as to the number of contrary things agains this particular opponent. The rest of the yells are encouraging our team, and man, thats what we do. We don't hit beach balls in the 4th quarter instead of watching the game, and we don't leave early once we know we relatively confident in our victory. We defintely don't give the other team's band members and players the finger while yelling "You suck balls you West Point rejects [the Corps of Cadets, and band]" and "Hey Reggie, gig this, F**k you, you c*** s****** faggot!" and then slap our other drunk buddy a high-five while our girlfriends add more whiskey to the 5 dollar cokes, from the bottle of Jim Beam handily kept in their purses, and left under the benches. Do I think that the 4-5 guys in front of me were the only ones doing this? No. Do i think that a vast majority of longhorn football fans, or Texas' student body does this? NO. Maybe they do, but I'm gonna side on not.

My friend Chris, he is the PERFECT example of a longhorn fan. He was sober, he knew the game, he knows more than 3 players names (Derrick Johnson, Vince Young, Cedric Benson), he cheers hard, gets freaking excited when they make a great play, goes nuts when Cedric the Bull runs over 4 guys for an extra 12 yards, gets pissed off that people around him don't care or stand up for their band, gets super annoyed with everyone hitting the beachballs around him, and holds his horns up for an injured player (be it an Aggie or 'horn) and yells when his team is on defense. He proudly wears his burnt orange sweat pants and t-shirt. He is not arrogant, his is prideful; he is not pompus, he's respectful; he's not degrading, he's logical. (You might think those 2 don't go together - but they do to me.) Thanks Chris, for being an example to your longhorn friends who need an example to look at.

Lets be clear for one minute. I know that A&M does not have perfect fans. We have drunken idiots who I'm certain harass the other team, all in "good fun". I have, however, had the experience to sit around the student section in a number of different seats, and I don't see alot of what i just mentioned before. I don't see alot of drunk Aggies (although, i'm well, well aware that there are many) gesturing the other team and cursing at the other team's band. I see respect in our stadium, for every team we face. I see respect when we take off our hats and step off the bleacher when someone is hurt. I see respect in our student body who come in 10s of thousands strong to stand behind our team till the end. Who wear maroon because it means something off of the football field too. I don't expect many of you to get this, I really don't, but I hope in some way you might see how proud I am; how it makes me swell-up with so much pride singing our songs and saying "Howdy" and wearing maroon. I do not hate UT, I do not hate any other school. I just am so ______ to be an Aggie.

“It is not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes up short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, and spends himself in a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows the triumph of high achievement; and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.” ~Theodore Roosevelt



You go ahead, sit back and criticize.

A&M played an incredible game.


Life is bigger than football, thats so obvious.

I wish hockey was playing.


Be honest with yourself. Do not lie to yourself.

Baylor somehow beat us this weekend in Waco.


They are not a good football team.



A&M GIVE US ROOM!

Welcome to the next level Boston Red Sox



Holy Crap, the curse is over


the curse is over




die goat



go Sox!


congrats

ASTROS!!!!




lost


i'm sincerely upset

if you are an astros fan you are upset too, but still so so proud of our AMAZING BOYS WHO CAME BACK FROM UNDER 500 HALFWAY THROUGH THE SEASON


ALL MY LIFE I WILL BE AN ASTROS FAN.

Today is the day that i make that pledge.


Come rain or shine, Astros till i die.

Holy crap, i hate when people think that they are the only one who feels one way

Man, people think that they are the only one going through stuff and the only one with problems


i tell you what, i'm gonna step outside my issues and i'm gonna look past my immediate cares and i'm gonna look at people - i'm gonna see in what ways the Lord uses me - because - everyone else - they are loking out for number 1 and caring only about themselves

now, lets be crystal clear - i'm not any place close to completely doing that - but thats what i'm working towards - a goal that is worth working towards -

get over yourself, whoever you are


live for the ETERNAL - not for the temporal

and don't forget to be sweet, becuase no one loves an abrasive personality

You go ahead and live in mediocrity

i'm gonna strive - i'm gonna step up - i really want to step up -and just go crazy

Running through the rain tonight - i felt ALIVE AGAIN


The pattern of the rain on my window next to me is so soothing - its odd, i know


The Astros lost tonight, the Cardinals are a bunch of shallow punks, they have no pitching, only big bats, they dont DESERVE A SINGLE THING


I find myself thinking and thinking and thinking, and i love it

so much

i love the thoughts that cross my mind - all the time - random and deep, stupid and random

its great


Vote for something, get informed, don't vote in any kind of ignorance

OK, so here's the list forever

i think this is going to be the order it stays and if you want a CD - then maybe you could email me or IM me your address and i could mail you one if you mail me a buck or so - or maybe not - i'm not really sure - but if you're interested and live in CS or Htown - or something let me know - but anyhow here we go:

1. Livin' On A Prayer (Bon Jovi) - Megan Douglass
2. Two Step (Dave Matthews Band) - Colin Veitenheimer
3. With or Without You (U2) - Caroline Sanders
4. Jesus Freak (dc talk) - Kim Podraza
5. Green Onions (instrumental)** (Booker T & The McGs) - Chris Riley
6. El Scorcho (Weezer) - Rebekah Matthews
7. Shameless (Garth Brooks) - Caitlin Wales
8. Leaving Town (Dexter Freebish) - Daniel Weizel
9. I Wish You Were Here (Incubus) - Chip Teets
10. You Know How I Do (Taking Back Sunday) - Chris Hamernik
11. Breathe (Michelle Branch) - Emily Scott
12. Drive (Incubus) - Daniel Weizel/Will Lanier
13. Take Me Out To The Dance Hall (Pat Green) - Chris Hill
14. Wake for Young Souls (Thrid Eye Blind) - Steve Weizel
15. Amsterdam (Coldplay) - Daniel Weizel...it is my efforts ya know...
16. Living In Your Letters (Dashboard Confessional) - Emily Staff


Music is absolutly amazing, and i wish i had some kind of musical talent

God is so good.

I have a bad feeling.