time comes and goes. i just looked through a photo album of a friend of my brothers, who was celebrating his last year at the air force academy.

i remember when my friends at the academies were getting ready to be sophomores, and I was looking forward to my junior year in college.

it all seems to have just wizzed by, and here i am - 24, out on my own, never to have a college experience again. this bums me out in a lot of ways, and i guess right now, that bumming out is outweighing the positive forethought of what lies ahead of me. truly the best is yet to come, but i just have no idea how quickly the past 6 years went, and i have no idea how much i would learn, and grow and change and gain perspective since i started the next steps in my life.



nostalgia is a funny thing - truly i think its a form of pity party - and thats not the best way to go about living life. but it is a good thing sometimes b/c you get to look back, and i think that for those who are mature enough to get over it (the nostalgia that is) in an appropriate amount of time, it forces you to evaluate where you are now, and where you are headed.... and who you are.


... and does that picture look like you want it to? are you who you want to be? truly, are you just letting the situations play the major role in molding you, or are you using situations to mold yourself, with the guidance of Wisdom, and the Wisest of Councils?


but i guess most of it is, for me anyway, i miss the way i used to think about developing - about how i told myself - thats not the best thing to do in the situation, and "this type of person doesn't notice when you do this" or things like that.


wow i don't blog very 'organizationally'


also, i wonder if the people who helped me along the way, realize what the have done, and i wonder if they value it.

i know that i value the thought of potentially doing that for someone else, and it would be great to know and hear that i did.




... and man people's journeys are just so unique, and unexpected. some can't hang on, some can.

but all of us need to hold out hope.


truly, hope.

Soldiers who are fighting in Iraq and Afghanistan routinely are on facebook.
Warfighters - men and women who are tasked with stabilizing a country and combating terrorist networks, update their status.

This just trips me out.

adults don't like jokes.

I understand being non-committal.

But some of my friends, refuse to take a stand and make a call on something. They can dance and dodge (which, believe me, I've been accused of) and not want to answer, being afraid of being backed into a corner, or exposed in ignorance. But thats ok. If you believe something, and you think its right, work it out, think on it, pray on it, truly evaluate it. Don't blindly believe anything, save your faith, if it so entails.

But for the love of God, stand strong.

It is unfair for my personal lack of discipline to affect relationships and areas in my life negatively, especially those upon which i place a great deal of value.

I barely caught it at almost a month since i posted.

Already 2 weeks into 2009, and time just keeps on flying.

A helicopter crash on A&M's campus yesterday - 1/12 - really bummed me out. Not only because a 22 year old, patriotic Aggie died, but becuase A&M might lose a great tradition of military proportions - the ROTC cadets - who, by the way, go through the same training and come into the Armed Forces as any other military academy - such as West Point or Annapolis.

I doubt that training such as this will take place on the fields again, which is kind of a bummer - that is such a unique thing - to have official military training operations take place on campus, and now, like Bonfire, they will probably be done away with.

Another person has died on A&M's campus, and that makes me sad. Terrible lucky? I guess... i don't know what else to call it...?