Well I do believe this week I'll take a wife.



I've had a good run as a bachelor. I have had some awesome times, and I owe a lot of people thanks.



So, thanks.



What a great path I've taken. Each experience from about age 18+ has helped me figure out a lot about myself, and helped me to change from the cocky punk I was, to the guy I am now. I'm so glad to have found a woman like Jenny.

Her spirit is a perfect compliment to my personality spirit in so many ways. I am so excited to serve her, and protect her and lead us into an exciting life - one without (too much) routine and complacency. She makes me want to think big, and 'be better' and pursue things outside of mundane. This girl sparks things inside me.

My loyalties take a new order from here on out: 1) Jenny 2) et cetera

There are plenty of nerves, sure... but I know that those nerves are overcome by love ...

1 John 4:17 - 21

By this is love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgment, because as he is so also are we in this world.

1Jo 4:18
There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.

1Jo 4:19
We love because he first loved us.

1Jo 4:20
If anyone says, "I love God, " and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen.

1Jo 4:21
And this commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother.

Songs like Bob Dylan's Girl From the North Country remind me how much I love music.

I get frustrated when I just hit a great Pandora groove; frustrated because I haven't put as much time into music and music discovery as I have in the past. It makes me feel so great - good music does.

Glad to have a girl who loves it, too.

this coming wedding is very exciting to me. I love hearing and thinking about my friends' marriages, and advice and everything. because i know that Jenny and I have this amazing ability to blend things together, or not blend things together to create our unique life together.

i love our uniqueness, and i feel that it is 10x more unique than anything i can see.

i am so excited to spend the rest of my life with a woman who understands me so incredibly well. this understanding was intuitive and it was not established by my blatant and intentional exposure. it was grasped by allowing herself to be vulnerable about her own spirit and mind, which in turn allowed me to be vulnerable. Pride tried (and will continue to) to get in the way, insisting that i think about things over and over and over again, and second guess my decisions. but God has this incredible way of just tipping over the house of sticks that Pride tries to build.

i guess thats the battle that Bono sings about in one of U2's best songs - Pride (In the Name of Love).

i've always been a romantic, so i wasn't concerned that Love would loose to Pride. but i've seen it do so many many times. i'm just glad i'm aware of it, and can fight on the correct side.

i'm always interested to see bloggers and their interests. especially when it comes to the modern day blog-o-sphere. if/when i told people that i blogged back in college... they kinda looked at me pretty oddly and said 'oh cool'. now, my blog is nothing special or anything to write home about, but for me, its been kinda cool to look back at the archives from late high school and early college and see what i wrote. long before facebook publishing and twitter addictions, blogs were an outlet to express thoughts publically. althought i've had my blog address on my facebook page for years now, it doesn't seem as though many of my friends read it. which is fine, i'm not looking for readership per se.

i'm just fascinated by the idea of these young newlyweds just jumping into a blog. its great to read stories and thoughts, but its funny to me, how a popular craze has picked up on something that has been around for a while. fair enough, and nothing but best wishes. because a blog becomes more dear to you, the longer you have/subscribe to it.

college basketball... came and went. argh. i feel as thought i didn't get a chance to enjoy it as much as i could have.

things have been insanely busy... especially because jenny and i are planning a wedding.

boy, things have just fallen into place with this planning stuff... i can definitely see how it could stress people out and cause much tension and grief, but so far, so good for us. I'm certainly not counting my chickens before they hatch, but lets be honest... we've got 75% of the major things sorted out, and we're only 1 month into a 5.8 month engagement. WIN.

stressful times over the past 8 months were incredibly varied, from travel and time, to the job hunt for my dear fiance. finally, a break we catch and jenny is plugged into a job that has just met so many of her desires in a work environment, and still provides opportunity for growth both socially as well as professionally. we didn't give up, in hoping for something like this, but we did trudge through the mud for a while. the Lord provides, in his time, and its Him who gets the credit.



gosh i'm so pumped for jenny to help me get my house in order. for us to customize it, etc. just get comfortable.

boy i'm engaged to the most unique, special, beautiful girl in the world.

i love her. she's amazing.

i love that she loves music, and i can't wait to experience music with her.

new music, old music, all of it.



she'll be my wife. thats so great.

Can't believe this is my first post of 2010. Not as if I'm particularly regular in posting anyhow.

Major relief this past weekend... Jenny got a job. This is just a release of my spirit and hers, and is just a weight off of our back. I am so grateful.

I realized something... some people like not having structure. Or at least not having a job. I know myself, and I know that if I did not have a distinct purpose and focus getting up each morning, I would slip into a draft of mediocrity and laziness. That sucks.

But some people really just enjoy the idea of days upon days of social expansion and socially focused activities (and if you know me, of course I do too). I would really enjoy an open schedule where I'm able to do what I please, but I do know this: I need structure, and I want to earn something.

Putting in hard work and focused work for an end, is something that drives me. But I have a suspicion it is not something that drives everyone.