i don't know what to say... i honestly don't know what to feel aside from gratitude that the Lord gave me what i asked for. i want to carry the burdens of those i love... i do, my heart longs for it... and the Lord gave me a true taste of that, and while it hurt a lot, it did feel good, and for that i'm so good. i need to start breaking the box i've placed the Lord in... ugh thats so bad.