yellow - 5
green - 4
brown - 11
red - 6
blue - 15
orage - 17

yellow - 5
green - 4
brown - 11
red - 6
blue - 15
orage - 17

Even if the Astros don't make the playoffs, which they probably won't, I still have hope for the next season... its a far cry from my extreme disappointment during the middle of this year...

we finished strong, and thats great. it may not result in the playoffs, which sucks so much, but its a good building ground for next year...

next year...

the future...


sheesh

people believe what they want to believe.

and stubborn people who are rarely wrong, do so even more.

i have 2 such people around me often, and i don't remember when they said the words.. "whoops, i was completely wrong about that" or... someone said something to them, that made them stop and change their mind.

i think that is just so ridiculous. maybe its because i'm wrong often, and have to admit it, that i feel like this.

but some people just hate to be wrong, more than they hate to look like an ignorant bastard (bastardette)

i can't believe its thursday already.

the weeks seem to go by so fast, and to me, since i only work 4 hrs on friday (most of the time), thursdays are like fridays to me.

it really amazes me how fast the weeks have flown by now that i've got work to do, and have been included in my group here at work. Its a face paced jobs sometimes, and other times its been pretty slow. Next week is the last week of the month for us, and we're gonna be busier, but its been nice to have a less stressful week at work.

resources are a non-issue in a large large company. pens, paper, printers, computers, they are all just expendable, and not a thought on managers minds. order 3 dozen new nice pens? done. print off things 5 times in color - 100 page packets? done.

i dunno how i feel about that. i'm conflicted

i feel like i'm going slower than everyone else before me.

i know things will work out... but it will all be a bitter apple for me if i learn later that it took me longer than everyone who's been here before

I'm just overwhelmed by it all... there's so much going on right now, and its not even about me.


i'm floating along in relatively mundane existence and people all around me are going through things


although i too am going through things.






[i'm so glad i'm not particular or obsessive enough to correctly punctuate and flow my blogs...]




but overwhelmingly i want to support those who are going through things - in those circumstances. newly married couples and problems, newly graduated friends looking for jobs, newly renewed relationships looking for leadership, and newly freshened perspectives on a whole range of things. i know that the key to it all is holding tight to things i know as truth. things i know to be fail-proof, and i know only of one. i know that God has been consistent in allowing me to go through things i can handle, and giving me problems to sort through, and giving me ridiculous blessings overall.




thats great




also, if sarah palin went to your home church, how might her daughter be looked upon in the youth group... 17 years old, pregnant?








also, how cool of a name is bristol?







also, when you make statements as if they are facts, try and back them up with objective information. not subjective conjectures.



especially if you are a leader.


i find myself trying to justify things with no ground to stand on sometimes. things that i really want to be true...



but the truth, in every situation, will be the final word.

i'm not quite sure if i believe the following death cab line. part of me believes its true. its just a little morbid.

"love is watching someone die"



i guess that is what sarah said, in the song "what sarah said".




love is watching, and helping someone LIVE. really live. but i guess that love is also watching someone die... at the end of a life... well lived, through a supportive relationship... of any kind

politics is back. once again i find myself at the end of questions from all over the place... regarding politics and people, etc.

i don't understand... why do people get so upset about potential policies.




events happen and things change... and i want everyone to understand that the end of the world is not going to be based on politics.




why are there a lot of bowties at the RNC? they look pompous.





i kind of wish i was in the middle of it, but i think that i am going to face enough stress and frustration talking with people who won't take an objective stance.


now who says that anyone has to come at any situation with complete objectivity? i suppose you don't have to.



i'm watching the RNC... and seeing mccain give his acceptance speech. he keeps getting awkwardly interrupted by the crowd shouting "USA"... and i don't get it.


i like palin. i think that she is a good shake up for this election. i really think that she might be the best candidate for any available position in this election.





i think its power that drives people to be so devoted to the political game.



i see the attractiveness of power too. there's a whole other level up there, and i think i may be a part of it one day... and i know that i can take a grounded stance with me wherever i go... i can evaluate it, and rethink it, and change it where necessary... but keep the grounded basis just that.