its almost as if no one gives any candidates a fair shake.

some people have their minds made up that no matter how terrible one candidate of a party is, the other (no matter who that is) will have to be worse by default.

and i don't think that is how we should operate. to me, that is a myopic stance, where only few issues matter, and opinions never change.

quite honestly, i don't believe God smiles upon our devisive politics and party systems. i do believe that the Lord is disappointed when we sling mud, and villify one of his sons or daughters. we are taught, above all, to love, and though we may not support one's viewpoints, becoming blindly irate at the person, is counter to that

ya know what pisses me the hell off?

people thinking that the money they have is theirs.

its not yours, my God. what did you do to DESERVE IT? and what do you think you are entitled to do with it?

if you're a christian... there are plenty of different scriptures about money, and our bible study is going to begin looking at them - which makes me excited - but you should have the overall idea that they money you have - was given to you - over and above anything you need or deserve... and for people to say so ignorantly and pompously - "its my money" or "i don't want MY MONEY GOING TO PEOPLE WHO NEED IT"... aka government programs... wow that's hypocrisy at its finest



a fine display of hypocrisy.


now don't get me wrong, i'm not a huge fan of MASSIVE government programming. but i think that our perspective of money - specifically when it comes to 'ownership' and 'government intervention', some people don't take a second to think how Christ would have shown love and met needs through money.



and why the hell are you so scared of change?


also, if you believe in God's sovereignty, then you believe that he has ordained who the next president is. so no matter who is in the office, the Lord has placed him there for his purposes.

don't you agree?

or

do you agree?

the months seem to fly by, and i find myself in a routine that is not the greatest.

last night at bible study, we talked about breaking the routine, and its something that i must do... if not, i fail...

and i have to get off of the idea of making it happen FOR MYSELF, BY MYSELF.

its an egocentric way to think - when i know that my emotions and thoughts are best managed through a lens that bends light first toward God, then toward others and myself.



refraction.
thats a cool word

in the middle of my cube farm, there is a workspace. This workspace, down at our end of the giant area, stays fairly neat. So neat, in fact, that the staplers are always lined up, and the binder clips are put neatly at the back of the work bench.

And when i go over to use the giant auto stapler, and staple remover, and sometimes when i just walk by, i pull out the staplers and turn them sideways, and generally throw off the balance of the table.

i think its because i want to teach a lesson.

people who want to keep things organized like that, and are ok with a little mess, must be DIFFERENTIATED from the people who want to keep things organized like that, and are completely thrown off, and cannot work, or cannot walk buy when they are VERY BUSY without fixing the table...


the former, i'm ok with... because for a majority of the time, i'm one of them. i like things neat, but i know better than to expect things (both little and big) to stay organized and neat all the time.


and i think for the latter, it speaks to an internal insecurity that worries me greatly. if its sets off something in them that they have to fix, and have to be in control of, even though it is not theirs... they are in a state of mind that is not healthy.

now, a counter argument is that "its not a big deal, we're talking about staplers..."

to which i respond... exactly... i always like stirring up a little trouble on things that are not a big deal.

then again, to these people it is a big deal, and they should learn to not treat things like this as such... they may need to change the way they've been doing things


which is why it pisses me the hell off to hear people at age 23 or 24 say "oh this is just how i do things..." or "oh this is just the way it goes" when responding to a criticism of sorts...

shut the hell up, and find a better way to do things. try something new. don't get stuck in a rut and placid, because that can be so damaging.

doing the same thing over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over... maybe thats what you want.

maybe safety is found in the arms of routine.

but wait, safety is found in risk... calcuated, yes; and otherwise