As i sit here on hold with HP, trying to get my IPAQ sync fixed up - i have a chance to reflect a little bit


Andrea Gent was injured in a car accident Sunday afternoon - the 23rd.
She is still in a coma, and probably won't come out of it.
Its bizzare in so many ways.
I met Andrea a little more than 3 years ago. I met her through Ben after they came back from Frontier - through Young Life.

I remember hanging out with her at my house over Christmas Break, and walking her out to her car. Most recently i remember her coming into our VTPB class and giving me a huge hug - and being so excited we were in a class together. Man, her smile just shines out in my mind. Its, wow, amazingly mind-blowing to think i'll never see it again. I'll never see her again. Andrea Gent is gone.

This week - i found myself in a daze; asking questions of God, asking questions of myself. Questioning, and recalling; getting upset and searching for peace.

Lets be really clear: I'm upset and my heart aches. There is no comfort in the world's words.

Lets be really clear: I'm not in control. I'm ok with that. I am totally helpless, and I'm fine.

God is in control. Its that simple. Don't make it too complicated, don't think about it too much. It won't make sense. What will make sense is this: God is in control; He knows whats going on; He's got a better plan than the one I can cook up.


Make the best of the situation you are put in. Word.

Look where we find ourselves:

2005

January

back in school


and focusing more and more on ourselves

maybe the problem is that you think of yourself too much

pity yourself too much

i find myself doing it sometimes, and i'm aiming to stop

but self-pity is where many people, oddly enough, find comfort.

and that is extremely strange to me

Dear ,

Get over yourself. Look around you, look at the people. There are times you should use to exchange with them feelings and thoughts...

Be interested in others.

Focus on what you need to do, but what lasts the longest is your investments in people.

Pursue things outside of yourself, then you'll have a better perspective inward.