I'm desperate for a change. I can't continue on in my ridiculous mindsets anymore. I have to stay active and stay focused, and make my actions match up with my words, or better still, my actions speak instead of my words

it makes me sick to think of the people who have put up with my inconsistencies and unreliability. friends in college, my parents, friends at work, and Jenny (she's put up with the most) how on earth can people believe what i say, when i don't do what i say i'm going to do? of course there are times when i make a decision to do something different than what i say, but those should be the exceptions and not the rule.

its so sick and its has to change, there really is no option left. i'm so grateful that the Lord was able to give me the grace to get up today and get going, as opposed to sleep till the last possible second.